12:06 PM
Friday, August 21, 2009
its like a dream...
if i didnt believe, it wont have hurt. if i didnt trust, it wont be painful.
the fact that i believe u weren't like this and it turns out that during the period, u actually when to look at the profile of other girls and click 'are u interested' on them... it felt likea billion blade stabbing into me. to believe then i cried a bucket... i felt to much regret abt saying ending it. i made so much effort to call u but u kept hanging up my call. u oersist on ending it. but on the other hand, it felt liek u have move on...
i dunno..
i am very tired. do we have to keep gg thru all these unhappiness? its a torture. or shld i be gracious..
i dunno.. being gracious imply being untrue to myself.
but i am getting there, losing grip.
a gf once told me, every guy does that, jus some wipe it clean, so got found out. but i believe not all guys are like that, cos at the end some evidences might surface. why not not do it, why not be truthful abt everything u say, be sincere with all yr promises, dun even need to wipe any choc, vanilla or strawberry off yr mouth. be the man, that keep to any little promises, even if it meant jus a promise of printing something out for her, writing an entry for her...
jus keep to yr words...
then trust and belief will slowly work out.
why bother cleaning, isn't it much easier and less hassle to heck the temptations? god gave us all one heart and one mouth. one heart to solelylove one person -- either zero or 100%. one mouth to jus taste the best food in the world 9try mixing 2 food tgt, u cant taste the pure flavour, the exact taste) and of cos to talk less and listen more with that 2 ears - to compromise, to make promises, to say nice things. what abt the 2 eyes... for u to see jus yrself and me..
why so... things are like this...
am i living in reality, are all these years real? or was it a illusion? a dream?
:(
