2:41 PM
Friday, July 31, 2009
regretted saying nasty things...
i know i must have hurt u greatly to have made u say this...
i tell u in my 22 yrs of life, only u insult me tis waynow my whole mind is filled up w this statement...
i know u have feeling for me. if not yr character u can jus leave us as it is. u can heck like u heck others whom u think is nt impt or hate. but i thought and hope i am jus this special someone. that u place on top of all others.
maybe i am selfish..
i hate sayong nasty things. i am changing. i know u are changing. doing things for me which i like it this way.. aft today, nt sure if u will continue.. but i will better myself.
sigh...
4:04 PM
Thursday, July 30, 2009
kinda feeling down.. after u broke the news to me. i seem like a useless jerk that can only dream and hope abt unrealistic things. i tot abt it now in office. looks like many things i wont have a say. cos after all... i am still an extra..
i mean i feel i am like a joke, a clown, that hope and hopes tht u will do something for me. not that u never. but its ok... i am jus referring to this issue. me here learn things the hard way. tot of getting things for myself. but no money, tot could find comfort talking to u. but i couldnt vv much express myself... really feeling so lousy.
my tummy cramps, i dunno wad else to think. i am sorry i said nasty things that i dun mean to.
9:52 AM
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
hmm.. today is the third day after convocation. so glad u made it there. at least.. u were there. i dunno whats the road ahead of us like. but i am thankful for the whatever memories we have for now..
yesterday was a great day. its good to be in yr company once again. not sure how it will be for us... but one thing for sure that i have learnt would be the warmth around u that can put be to sleep even on the packed train where i feel real insecure.
there are a lot to move on from here. lets get the better for us ok.
i really hope u will continue to do things for me while i do my best as well..
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